it shakes the dead that rest inside me,

and pushes the present away,

with ease that comes too easily,

with words i'll never hear anyone say.

the toss and turn between my sheets,

and the chill that aches my broken bones,

the hurtful flame, fire and heat,

and the only puzzle i've ever known. 

i wonder where have you gone?

truly,aly

stormbringer coming!!

her name is stef. and she eats boys like you for breakfast. 

hahahaa..

:)

15 days to go!

and i'm already bouncing in my seat.

truly,aly

firewind - mercenary man

your heart, on my sleeve.
so i could squash it.
so i could fix it.

that's why i'm asking,
for your heart,
on my sleeve.

tagged on tumblr!!

i have not done any tags in ages!! so, why not?? plus this looks pretty interesting. 

 

1) food. music. a good sense of humour. honesty. and reassurance. 

2) i feel strongly about many things. 

3) i don't know if i love a book. if i had to choose, i think it might be bright, shinny morning by james frey. 

4)  - woke up hungover

     - ate

     - went to the city for abit

     - went up and down mount lofty!!

     - had dumplings for dinner at chinatown

     - took the bus home

     - had a small bit of bob's chicken tomato rice pot for supper

     - i'm now msn video chatting with the ultimate annoying orange

5) gee.. ex.. erm.. congratulations. :)

6) i don't really like listening to the radio nowadays. but i do admit that from time to time, i find gems. 

7) people talking louder than they have to. people who stand on the dancefloor instead of dance. think it's just the two, thanks. :)

8) leftover homemade pizza, an m&m cookie, dumplings and bob owh amazing chicken and tomato rice hot pot!!

9) every bit of progress comes from education. without education, i think civilisation will completely fail. 

10) - high and dry by radiohead

      - it ain't over til it's over by lenny kravitz

      - anywhere but here by orjan nilsen featuring neev kennedy

      - that day by one buck short

      - opening by ellegarden

      - this suffering by billy talent

      - taste the poison by story of the year

      - hash pipe by weezer

      - hapus aku by nidji

      - 2 minutes to midnight by iron maiden

11) i love my family with every part of my being, be it good or bad. and as easily as i say that, they love me the same way too. :)

12) MATT DAMON!! Ryan Renolds. Dave Days. Alex Turner. and Matt Tong. 

13) ok. there are days when i wake up and hate everything i see in the mirror. then, there are days that i feel absolutely gorgeous. but i experience more of the former than the latter. :(

14) classic me. t-shirt, jeans and chucks. even up the mountain. 

15) i'm an aries. fire sign. unpredictably volatile. definitely me. 

16) what if i never broke any of my bones? how awesome would i be now? 

17) to me, in my world, i am an awesome shuffler. and nobody beats me. i stress "to me, in my world". 

18) i've been having issues with sleeping. it's getting better now though. 

19) - mapex saturn shell pack in BLUE!!

      - tickets to stereosonic in adelaide this year

      - chuck taylors low cut in green

      - churros!!

      - valhona chocolate fondant

20) that i will be disable before i die. 

21) i hope that i will be happy. and that i can make other people happy. 

22) i'm reading a bachelors degree in psychological sciences at the moment. i'm in my third year. previously, i did a certificate in hairdressing. and before that, i did a diploma in mass communications majoring in public relations. i actually want to study TESOL sometime in the future.

23) i miss my drums back home. really bad. 

24) - "ganesh, motherfucker" but only if reefy says it

      - nee garh, nee garh

      - aly, makan!

      - "that's what he said"

      - gawler as said by marty as impersonated by jujube. 

25) i am worrying about things i can control. so, i'm kinda pissed off cause i feel like i'm slacking. 

26) i like my scars. i dislike everything else. maybe there are days when i like my legs. and perhaps days when i like my fingers. 

27) "believe / achieve"

28) i want to move to healesville sanctuary. if i could find a physical place that make me feel that way. 

29) gee.. i don't know.. 

      - i like....i don't get it. define weird. 

30) at the moment, debate training on tuesday. 

ok, there it is. thanks for reading. the ultimate annoying orange has challenged me to a game of checkers. *challenge accepted!!* :)

truly,aly

skater boys

if i could burn the sunset a brighter red,

i'd burn the twilight in a blink,

if my thoughts could mess up your head,

i'd break your mind with a wink.

if the sea could be a cooler blue,

i'd drown a saphire sky in the ocean,

if there's anything my kindness could do for you,

i'd leave you only with the notion. 

if your mornings could be better,

i'd make the effort and sweep you away,

if my words was the deciding factor,

bet your bottom dollar i'd blow you away. 

on another note, conversations from the weekend have reminded me why i don't play games, have become prudent and who i want to be here. from time to time, stuff pops up and i read it with a very light heart. because i think even if i want my freedom, i want someone to care for me. i'm not exactly a wreck. but i'm pretty sure i'm a little dizzy in the head. 

owh well, the only comfort is that i see slim jim in every skater boy that passes by. and that's always fun. 

truly,aly

song of the week

reefy shared this song with me. and it hit my soft spot. honestly speaking, everyone who knows me and reefy know the back and forth going on between us. and now that i'm here, well, the back and forth stopped. not because he couldn't keep me happy, but because i cannot find it in me. maybe because i'm not made the way he is. 

anyway, the song is worlds apart by tydi feat audrey gallagher. the duo are a favourite of our's. i guess i take comfort in knowing that when i listen to this song, he'd know how it makes me feel. just because he does know me that well. 

owh how did it come to this? am i still breathing?

blind faith and a silent kiss and i'm still reeling

hope echoing through my heart and i know this feeling

we'll take it back to the start and be done dealing.

please don't break my heart

you hold all it's pieces, never let it fall apart

owh, you said it all

we lose sense of reason every time we seem to fall.

one look and the world stands still but the sky's falling

one word and we both begin to accept ending

hope crashing into your arms but still, i'm dreaming

one room but still worlds apart and there's no healing

please don't break my heart

you hold all it's pieces, never let it fall apart

owh, you said it all

we lose sense of reason every time we seem to fall.

please don't break my heart

you hold all it's pieces, never let it fall apart.

 

thanks for the song reefy. it lets me know you're still looking out for me. :)

truly,aly

you too

i listen to your shinny eyes while they lie,

while they promise,

everything and nothing all the same,

in your love’s mist my skin will bruise,

for never having the chance to bruise you too.

i think i know too well, too well,

what you mean by yes and no,

and how it feels living in a shadow,

in your love's mist my heart will burn,

for never having the chance to burn you too.

i believe your forever,

the countless times they come and go,

and blame only the beauty i am not,

in your love's mist my everything will hurt,

for never having the chance to hurt you too. 

ok. emo. but, i will not feel sorry for myself. 

truly,aly